Today has been harder than yesterday. I’m in a fair amount of physical pain. Standing up is extremely painful. My sides hurt. My shoulders hurt. Everything hurts.
I can’t talk about it yet. I woke up in tears this morning. My parents stayed with us last night, and after they left to go get some rest, I sobbed with A. This is too hard. I can’t handle this. Wednesday was supposed to be the beginning of the end of this. There was a light. Now there isn’t.
I don’t know how to put myself back together. I can’t handle this. It’s too hard.